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Around here of late

People have asked me how it has been the last few months with three children.  I normally answer by saying something like, “great!  as good as it could be really!”  And I mean that.  I have two older kids who are pretty self-sufficient and delighted by their new sister.  I have a healthy baby who eats and sleeps well and seems to have a pretty relaxed disposition.  But three kids is still three kids.  I generally feel like someone always needs something and I feel that I am ignoring someone most of the time.  Often I find that the intense moments come in spurts, when after hours of peace, everyone explodes at the same time and usually when we need to be getting in the car to go somewhere and we’re already almost late (I’m realizing more and more how much I hate being late).  Being a mom to three has certainly highlighted how much I need to learn about patience and grace.  However, despite the challenges, I want to remember this cozy season of baby cuddles, crafting, cooking, and short winter days.

I took this picture to while I was finishing up dinner the other day. Maggie came up to me, sat on the table, crossed her legs, and asked me, “what is your favorite thing to do at parties?”

I can’t stop making and eating pumpkin pie. This is my favorite Christmas mug. And thanks to my Keurig, I use it about 4x/day.

Comfort food during the cold months is my favorite type of cooking. Shepherd’s pie, Pork Ragu, Chicken pot pie, pie!, soups on sunday, bread, and more bread. A table set for family dinner on a cold night is happy sight.

current state of motherhood

I feel like this gets talked about a lot but….it is so true.  The range of experiences and emotions that one experiences as a (primarily) stay-at-home parent is mind blowing.  Within a given day (ok, lets be real, 1/2 hour), I experience the highs of watching my children play, sharing their joy, observing their development, receiving and giving affection, etc. etc…  I also experience the lows of meltdowns, physical exhaustion, loneliness, messes, you get the idea.  Most days I find myself apologizing once or more to my kids for messing up (hey, moms have meltdowns too).

 

But for real.  these faces.  we’ve had a fabulous and long summer break and

it has been just. so. great.

Merry everything 

I’m working on a “year in review” post but in the meantime, here are some Holiday photos. Every year I find myself thinking about how I can plan, organize, and do more, but I think that’s just the nature of being a mom at Christmas time! December included track out for Jackson, multiple illnesses for almost all of us, Play dates, advent, trips to the library, museum visits, baking, Christmas movies, crafting, too much screen time, slow mornings, book reading, Christmas music, and way too many treats! We have been merry and yes, tired and short on patience at times, but I’m so thankful for Jesus and family and Christmas!

birthday eve

tonight, i have been waiting for maggie to fall asleep.  tonight, her fourth tooth is almost there and she knows she would rather rock and cuddle with momma in the nursery chair than fall asleep.

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last year on the night of october 6th, I was four days after my due date.  i had been having regular contractions since about 4:00 when we were playing at the park with friends.  last year, at this time, i had already stayed at the hospital 3 times prior with the pregnancy.  including a brief trip two nights before.  eleanor was at the house, we were watching a movie and i was getting everything ready to go.  i had been apprehensive about having to leave jackson without being able to say goodbye and that didn’t happen at all! he knew that the baby was coming, he knew “e” was there, and i had been able to put him to bed myself, his last night as an only child.

everyone (including my doctor) said that the second baby would come so much faster than the first.  and while it is true that my labor with maggie was shorter than with jackson, it was in no way fast.  21 hours after regular contractions began, at 2:31 pm on October 7th, Maggie Grace Sutton was born.

when we got to the hospital around 11 or 12, labor was regular and getting more intense but it was clear that Maggie was not coming any time soon.  many laps were walked.  i was pretty much the only woman in labor at the hospital.  at one point while i was walking the halls, I saw a mom being wheeled to her recovery room with her new baby on her lap.  i longed to be on the other side, to experience the relief of it all being over!

after a long night, i was able to get the epidural around 5 something in the morning.  i felt that i experienced more intense labor with maggie than i did with jackson and boy, was that epidural sooo niiice.  🙂  i felt so relieved.  travis and i slept.  i only napped a little while before just enjoying the peace of relief and the sunny morning.  i did have a few minutes of excitement right after getting the epidural.  it felt like a panic attack and after some oxygen i felt much better.  (travis slept through that incident!) and a few minutes after the nurses left, i took off my oxygen mask thinking i was fine and then the panic happened again.  this time, i couldn’t find the call button and screamed at travis to find a nurse.  travis, who was oblivious to what was going on woke up and ran into the hallway.  this time, i left the oxygen mask on for quite some time 🙂

throughout the morning i kept everyone up to date via text, i listened to worship music and honestly just felt so good and excited.  after getting the epidural labor progressed and in the 1.5 to 2 hrs leading up to maggie’s arrival i again (as i did with jackson) experienced some intensity!  right before it was time to push, to travis’ alarm, the tears started to flow!  not from pain or fear, but from the sheer excitement of knowing i was going to meet my baby girl in moments!

the biggest difference between having jackson and having maggie, was that, with jackson, i had no idea what anything was going to be like.  it was so surreal.  after being jackson’s mommy, i knew what it meant to love a baby and my heart was ready.  after 2.5 pushes and about five minutes, maggie grace was on my chest and screaming!  she definitely made more noise than her brother upon arrival and weighed 8 lbs 4 oz.  (the doctor was convinced there was no way i was going to have an 8 lb baby but i had guessed 8 lbs 1 oz).  and that hair!!!

 

the doctor and nurses finished and slipped out quickly leaving travis and me to quietly meet and enjoy our girl.  after a while, i was wheeled to my room with maggie in my arms.  on the way we passed a woman walking the halls in labor.  i cant describe the feeling of finally seeing maggie’s face, holding her close, and knowing it was all done.

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Back to reality 

Jackson got on the bus just a few minutes ago but I already miss him. We finished the summer with a bang during his first track out and it felt so appropriate that he tracked back in on October 1st. It even feels like a new season outside today! 

We had a great time though, lots of movie nights, playtime, slow mornings, and road trip adventures. 
I love this guy. 

   
    
 

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